#kim jiyoung

[soyeonsbabygirl]

Why not me? | Hirai Momo x Kim Jiyoung

Momo knew she liked Jia. She knew it from the day they met on SIXTEEN, she knew it from the way she saw how Jia danced so effortlessly, she knew it when she was eliminated from SIXTEEEN but her first thought was about Jia instead of how long she trained. She was overjoyed when she got added back to the lineup but one of the main reasons she was so happy was because it meant she would get to debut with Jia. She didn’t care what would happen as long as she could have Jia she didn’t care.

She remembers how she felt when Jia told her about how she kissed Seulgi. She felt hurt. Seulgi didn’t deserve Jia, she didn’t even know Jia’s favorite color, her favorite food, or even her sister’s names! but Momo did. Momo knew almost everything about Jia from her favorite color to her Spiderman obsession, if anything Momo was willing to get a matching Spiderman tattoo with Jia (if she could find a good one that is.) despite all of this, she still decided to support Jia. She still wants Jia to be happy after all. And besides, who knows? maybe Jia and Seulgi would just be a hook up instead of something serious…right?

How wrong she was. Seulgi and Jia not only started dating but they caught dating as well. Which also led to Jia being outed as a lesbian. Momo saw everything they said about her and Seulgi, it made her mad seeing people’s reactions but the love and support the 2 got counteracted the hate in a way. She was happy for Jia but jealous wishing it was her and Jia instead of her and Seulgi.

How she wished fans were saying their congratulations about her and Jia’s relationship more than anything. She wondered how Jia’s lips would feel on her own, wishing that her hugs were more than just normal hugs, she wished that she could hold Jia close against her, breathing in her perfume. She noticed how Jia’s hair got longer since Seulgi apparently liked her even more like that, Momo thought her long hair was beautiful but she did miss her signature short hair. She did love how Jia’s hair was so long it was nearly to her waist, she imagined what it would be like to run her hands in Jia’s hair as she kissed her or how it would feel to have Jia hold her while Momo’s fingers massaged her scalp.

She still remembers the day Seulgi broke up with Jia. She remembers how bad of a breakdown Jia had, her screams being heard all over the dorm. The loud sobs Jia had let out that day will forever haunt her. It took Jia a while to get over Seulgi and Momo was there to help her every step of the way, when Jia would sob at night Momo made sure to be there to hold her. When she saw that Jia had cut her hair she supported it, she briefly understood Jia’s need of control so she understood why Jia did this, instead of giving her a shocked look like Chaeyoung and Tzuyu did she just hugged Jia supporting her. She looked like herself again, her Jia and not the Jia that Seulgi wanted her to be.

Momo sat in Jia’s room on her bed. She usually sat in there with Jia finding the girl’s presence comforting, this time was a bit different though. Her usual clean room did not look as clean as usual, it wasn’t messy but it was clear what had taken place here. A pile of clothes Jia had attempted to shove with her own but they stood out like a sore thumb to Momo since she knew what all of Jia’s clothes looked like.

Multiple bracelets were on her nightstand, as well as a few lip glosses, none of these items belonged to Jia. They didn't blend in with the rest Jia’s stuff like her tattoo gun that she somehow managed to keep a secret from Jihyo, they didn’t blend in like the Spiderman posters she had on her walls or the random pictures of Gwen Stacy she had, they just stood out worse like something that didn’t belong. The worst thing that was there was the bright lip glosses and polaroids, Momo knew that the lip glosses and polaroids were nowhere near Jia’s.

Jia hated bright lipstick and lipglosses since she felt like it clashed with her style and how sticky they can get, the lip glosses also had a fruity scent that she knew Jia hated the smell of since she claimed it gave her headaches at times. The polaroids were obviously not Jia’s, Jia liked polaroids but she liked being the one taking them. Momo liked when Jia took pictures of her since to her Jia really knew how to capture the beauty of something in a single frame even if she would sometimes flip the camera upside down as a way to say that Spiderman took them (something Momo found cute.) She still remembers the day she saw what was really on those polaroids.

she still wasn’t sure what made her pick them up that one day, but she did and the sight of what was on the pictures made her feel sick. A picture that was shaken obviously not taken by Jia but someone else, she was more focused on what it was Jia and the girl were doing in the photo. Jia’s hand was on the lower part of the girls jaw kissing her making Momo feeling sick with a desire of wanting that to be her but also hating the sight. She’d suspected that Jia was hooking up with someone knew after Vivi but she wasn’t sure who but this all confirmed all her suspicions. The cube logo in the background told her it was the cube practice room along with a small appearance of Sooyoung — Jia’s younger sister — her back to them talking with Miyeon, seemingly unaware of what her older sister was doing.

Momo had noticed the way Jia would smirk when someone brought up CLC specifically Sorn, she had noticed the way Sorn had started following Jia on instagram sometimes commenting on the girls pictures. And with this picture it showed Momo that Jia’s current fling was Sorn.

“Are you ok?” Jia’s voice snapped Momo out of her thoughts. Momo nodded, hoping Jia would drop it but instead she moved closer to Momo. She shifted uncomfortably but calmed down feeling Jia’s fingers brush against her cheek moving a few hairs out of her face, the action was so gentle and almost intimate Momo felt her face heat up while Jia smirked slightly.

“Did you hear what I asked you or were you too busy starring at how beautiful I am?” Momo shook her head making Jia chuckle “I was wondering if you wanted to get Jokbal with me and Nayeon tonight? she asked me and we all know how much you love it.” Wow. She remembered her favorite food, sure it was no secret it was her favorite but still. The fact Jia knew naturally made her fall for her even deeper than she realized.

Momo nodded scared to speak because if she did she was scared that it might not come out the way she wanted, Jia smiled giving Momo’s thigh a small tap as she left the room. Momo sighed when she was sure that Jia had left. She loved Jia more than she had originally thought and wished that Jia would only love her back.

[dyinggirldied]

[fembrie]

i can't put into words how succinctly kim jiyoung, born 1982 pinpoints the experience of womanhood in the 21st century and tears a fucking hole right through it. it's people who point to laws and gender equality committees and mandatory hr sensitivity trainings who need to read this book the most - women already know that our suffering looks like realizing you've been trained to put other people first your whole life, knowing men live more freely because they do not. we know that our oppression is not just men's violent outbursts, but the slow and steady lifelong culmination of excessive responsibility, pressure and routine injustice. i used to wonder whether it's even possible to communicate experiences so familiar to one sex and alien to the other across these lines. pay gaps are easy to talk about because they're quantifiable, but how do you communicate the cruelty of making us choose between having children and our ambitions? how do you express the frustrations of toeing the line between fellow human and consumable sex object in the eyes of men? how do you explain the ways in which cycles of unassuming acceptance of our place in society, rebellion and defeat mould, contort, disfigure our beings? and is it even worth trying? fwiw, i think cho nam-joo has come as close to succeeding at this as you can

[georgiaatwarr]

To everyone saying that I’m destroying my books by annotating them, have you considered that they destroyed me first? 

Perhaps I am not bringing my pen and marker into innocent books. Perhaps this is revenge.

[mysticallilac]

do you ever finish a book and just know you'll never be the same person again. yeah.

[ohhhmio]

chapter 56.

why is there always sexual tension between these two bitches? this is why they're shipped both inside and outside the story. they have no one to blame here but themselves.

[prplocks]

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[pikminenjoyer]

Battle royale is so bonkers in a good way

[gliterarias]

Resenha Coletiva: Kim Jiyoung, Nascida em 1982

Kim Jiyoung, Nascida em 1982 é uma obra coreana publicada originalmente em 2016, é o terceiro livro de Cho Nam-joo, que se baseou em sua própria vivência como mulher sul-coreana. A obra retrata a história de Jiyoung, que de repente começa a agir de forma estranha, personificando outras mulheres — vivas e mortas — que conheceu. Aos poucos, vamos descobrindo um pouco mais dos motivos que a levaram aos sintomas, além de termos contato com o machismo cultural extremista existente na Coreia do Sul, indo além do que os K-Dramas e idols de K-Pop nos apresentam. 

O livro é divido em 6 partes, essas fases da vida de Jiyoung ( Outono de 2015; Infância, 1982-1994; Adolescência, 1995-2000; Início da vida adulta, 2001-2011; Casamento, 2012-2015; 2016). Em cada fase da vida vemos a criança, jovem e adulta Jiyoung passar por situações indignantes. 

Grande parte delas são provindas do machismo cultural achar que mulheres não são capazes, que servem apenas para casar, procriar e servir ao marido e cuidar da família na velhice dos pais e sogros e servir aos irmãos homens e aos filhos homens, isso tudo com acréscimos: elas devem sustentar esses filhos, e irmãos, caso ainda não sejam casadas e não tenham filhos durante todo o processo de formação profissional, e aí, só então, elas podem pensar na própria vida, de preferência envolvendo escolher um marido que vá sustentá-la e manter sua família depois do casamento. 

Mas doce é o engano da mulher de querer pensar em si mesma depois do casamento, antes ainda ele tem que dar um filho HOMEM ao marido. A questão da gravidez e querer se manter no mercado de trabalho, a cobrança familiar e da sociedade para o papel de mão só enfatizam mais a falta de liberdade da mulher.

Por coincidência, a leitura desse livro ocorreu ao mesmo tempo em que diversos relatos sobre abuso e assédio sexual com sul-coreanas estão sendo expostos nas redes sociais em um pedido de socorro aos outros países, pois o seu próprio país prefere fingir que nada está acontecendo para evitar consequências para os criminosos, enquanto as vítimas são tachadas de erradas, loucas e histéricas.

Nam-joo retrata esse apagamento com maestria em seu livro, expondo o lado obscuro da Coreia do Sul com dados e datas nas notas de rodapé, e finaliza magnificamente concluindo que o ciclo se repete sem fim.

Mary: Incrível. Li por indicação indireta de Kim Namjoon (BTS). E saber que não importa o país, a língua, a idade, a cultura, ainda assim vamos ser tratadas como seres inferiores é extremamente frustrante. Mesmo os homens que deveriam amá-la, respeitá-la e protegê-la, mesmo aqueles que diziam entender o que elas passavam, faziam a mesma coisa. A forma como ela prefere manter as escolhas patriarcas só para evitar desconforto me deixou muito irritada, acredito que por ter visto ou ter passado por algumas situações semelhantes. Nenhuma mulher deveria passar por nada próximo do que Jiyoung, Eunsil, Eunsik, Misook, Hyejin, Eunyoung, as funcionárias da empresa onde ela trabalhava e a moça da sorveteria passaram. #SomosTodasJiyoung

Nick: Eu amei a leitura. Tá, ela me deixou desconfortável, mas é um desconforto necessário, o livro nos mostra como é viver como mulher num país patriarcal, independente de ser Coreia ou Brasil, nós, mulheres, sempre passamos por momentos difíceis e é nossa escolha enfrentar ou aquietar — como a Kim Jiyoung fez, ISSO foi irritante pra caramba. Eu gostaria que ela tivesse se imposto mais, mas também consigo entender ela, com toda a pressão patriarcal, com todos os homens que deveriam proteger e tentar entender ela — ter empatia — e até mesmo algumas mulheres, como a avó dela, nunca estarem do lado dela, o que fez a Jiyoung sentir que nem valeria a pena tentar alguma coisa, e eu acredito que muitas mulheres ainda se sentem assim, por isso que é uma leitura tão necessária, porque se uma mulher não lutar contra o patriarcado, quem vai? #SomosTodasJiyoung

Tainá: Kim cresce ouvindo que deve ser cuidadosa, se vestir de modo conservador, agir como uma “mocinha”. Que era responsabilidade dela evitar lugares, horários e pessoas perigosas. Que era culpa dela por não perceber isso e não evitar. E, bem, que menina não cresceu ouvindo esses "alertas" da família? Porque, se bem me lembro, eu vivi ouvindo isso. Foi fácil me pôr na pele da personagem.

    Quando ela escuta de seus professores de ensino “fundamental” sobre os uniformes, quando ela e outras colegas de trabalho sofrem a violência e a pornografia no ambiente de trabalho e ainda é culpada pela própria família por isso. Me lembrei de debates que tive e ouvi no ensino médio com amigos e colegas de sala sobre como os garotos sempre achavam "normal" e "necessários" uma das regras da escola que as meninas desde o 6° ano se cobrissem em pleno verão (brasileiro), calor de 40 graus, ar condicionado estourando nas salas de aula, mas as meninas deviam ir de calças jeans (sem rasgos) e camisetas de manga curta para evitar o assédio de colegas e "professores" dentro e fora de sala. E como nós tentávamos burlar o sistema e o calor usando as bermudas permitidas do uniforme "masculino".

     O livro me trouxe uma sensação de inacabado, o final do livro é fechado, mas não respondeu às minhas perguntas sobre a condição atual de Jiyoung depois dos acontecimentos do início do livro. Me deixou um pouco incomodada. Descobri que tem um filme sobre o livro e estou tentada a assistir futuramente (risos). Vamos ver se o final do filme é o mesmo que o do livro.  #SomosTodasJiyoung

[words-and-coffee]

Don’t stay out of trouble. Run wild! Run wild, you hear me?

Cho Nam-Joo,  Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982 (translated by Jamie Chang)

[thatgoddamngingerundercut]

Taehyung goddamn???

[soyeonsbabygirl]

📁Moji but it’s just Momo being jealous

Clip 1 📹…

The girls were all live having a good time talking to fans. Momo was trying to stay focused but that was harder than she thought with Jia and Nayeon next to her practically flirting. Jia would whisper something in Nayeon’s ear making Nayeon giggle while Jia smirked, or when Nayeon would talk she would look down at her lips teasing the younger girl. Momo got tired of it and let out a loud sigh that making it obvious she was feeling annoyed, Jia looked over at Momo which made Momo want to melt on the spot. Jia teasingly leaned in close to Momo, taking notice to how Momo’s cheeks seemed to get pinker the closer Jia got. Jia laughed pulling away as she left her hand on Momo’s thigh leaving Momo a blushing mess as she attempted to get through the rest of live.

Clip 2 📹…

Dahyun was talking to the camera as she filmed a vlog. She was sitting next to Momo who had a smile on her face listening to Dahyun talk as well as flirting with the girl at times. “have you guys seen my shirt?” Jia’s voice could be heard calling out to the living room. “Which one! I know all your shirts, describe it to me!” Momo called out in response, Jia walked into the living room both girls looking up at her off camera. Jia smirked as her eyes stayed on Dahyun making the girl shift in her spot on the couch which Momo also took notice of. “I found my shirt.” Momo followed Jia’s eyes to Dahyun’s body , then she understood what Jia meant. Dahyun was wearing a white shirt that had a design of spider webs outlined by rhinestones, a shirt that Jia had worn numerous times. Her gaze hardened as Dahyun giggled trying to change topics as Jia walked away.

Clip 3 📹…

All of TWICE walked in the airport coming back from international schedules, multiple fans were screaming, cameras flashing, bodyguards protecting them from any potential threats as they walked. Jihyo held Jia’s hand as they both waved at fans or in Jia’s case the occasional wink paired with a teasing smile or flirty smirk. Momo walked behind them at first trying to keep a smile but her eyes always made it back to Jihyo and Jia’s hands. at one point Momo can be seen running towards the 2, once she got to Jia she hugged the girl putting her face in her neck. Jia laughed as she held Momo’s hand smirking slightly letting go of Jihyo’s hand forgetting that she was even holding the girls hand as she held Momo’s hand throughout the whole airport. A tiny smirk could be seen on Momo’s face as she looked back at Jihyo no longer holding Jia’s hand.

…

[sideshrimp]

Reading books recommended by Rm from BTS

[samireads]

Just some Korean literature 🇰🇷✌🏻

[random-bookquotes]

He likes me? He picks on me because he likes me? Jiyoung was confused. She went over the series of incidents that she had suffered because of him, and still couldn’t make sense of what the teacher was saying. If you like someone, you’re friendlier and nicer to them. To friends, to family, to your pet dogs and cats. Even at the age of eight, this was common sense to Jiyoung. The desk-mate’s pranks made school life so difficult for her. What he’d put her through was awful enough, and now the teacher was making her out to be a bad child who misunderstood her friend.

Cho Nam-Joo, Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982

[kierrasreads]

Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982 by Cho Nam-Joo Review

Plot

Kim Jiyoung is a girl born to a mother whose in-laws wanted a boy. Kim Jiyoung is a sister made to share a room while her brother gets one of his own. Kim Jiyoung is a female preyed upon by male teachers at school. Kim Jiyoung is a daughter whose father blames her when she is harassed late at night. Kim Jiyoung is a good student who doesn't get put forward for internships. Kim Jiyoung is a model employee but gets overlooked for promotion. Kim Jiyoung is a wife who gives up her career and independence for a life of domesticity. Kim Jiyoung has started acting strangely. Kim Jiyoung is depressed. Kim Jiyoung is mad. Kim Jiyoung is her own woman. Kim Jiyoung is every woman. Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982 is the life story of one young woman born at the end of the twentieth century and raises questions about endemic misogyny and institutional oppression that are relevant to us all. Riveting, original and uncompromising, this is the most important book to have emerged from South Korea since Han Kang's The Vegetarian.

Discussion

This is a well written book! It describes what girls/women go through, especially in South Korea. I highly recommend it!

Rating

5/5